I can see the pain

by Nikki

I still see your face in my dreams
It hurts and it doesn't help at all
I still want you in my life as crazy as that seems
I want you to catch me when I fall

I still remember the first time we met
There was something so different about you
Your friendship was something I wanted to get
That smile when you said hi to me was so new

Out of no where you called me on the phone
I wanted to sit there and talk to you forever
You were so new, so crazy and unknown
I just knew that our friendship would never sever

Two years and we are barely holding it together
What happened to the way this all used to be
I never wanted you out of my like ever
I sat there for a long time pretending not to see

We decided to go out and make it all all right
It didn't work out of course we knew it couldn't
We couldn't even really stand each others sight
It shouldn't end this way but it did and I shouldn't

I miss you and everything you were to me
Ten years from now we will look back on it all
We will be older and finally be able to see
That love will stand the test of time and never fall

p/s : never heard of this song. this liryc remember me of something that i try to forget BUT it hard to forget something that i want to remember in my life. memory is just like buble gum that will stick in the brain. it just give a pain to wash or remove that buble gum from my brain. mybe it need time to wash all of it.

*update : actually this is not a a song.hahaha....recently i just found that "i can see the pain" is a poem...beautifully wrote by nikki. (memandai je aku kata ni lagu eh)